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[Sunday
05/10/09 at 10:06pm] |
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For Mother's day, the twins each made Lita a card.
And they asked her if she would be their mommy.
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[Sunday
10/05/08 at 10:08pm] |
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So Halloween is getting close and I asked the twins today what they wants to be. Last year they were Thing 1 and Thing 2 and I went with them as the Cat in the Hat. Apparently they liked that because this year they want to be Peter Pan and Wendy (Or Tinkerbell. Nat hasn't decided yet.) But, they're quite certain they want me to be Captain Hook.
I hate Halloween.
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[Saturday
09/20/08 at 9:34pm] |
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Are you kidding me?
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[Wednesday
09/10/08 at 1:17am] |
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Kylie Only
Come visit me in LA. I need some help with some shit. And the rugrats want to see you.
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[Tuesday
09/09/08 at 7:11pm] |
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Private: Open to Kylie.
They offered me the job.
They want an answer by Wednesday.
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[Wednesday
09/03/08 at 11:33pm] |
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Private: Open to Kylie
John Hopkins University called. They want me to come and teach. One of their professors quit. Well, one of my old professors quit and when he quit, he told them that they needed to look into hiring me. Guess he got fried for some drug thing. Never would known it but everyone has their problems.
But they want me to come for an interview this week. Teaching would be great for the twins. I wouldn't have to worry about working weird shifts in the middle of the night. There wouldn't be a pager on my nightstand waking me up in the middle of the night anymore.
I just. Fuck. Lita's here. Her life is here. I can't ask her to go with me. She'll say no. Her family is here. Everything she had to live for is here in LA.
I don't know what to do.
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[Monday
07/28/08 at 9:01pm] |
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I'm tired. It's been a long day. Lita's been working on stuff and the twins were on some kind of sugar rush or something because they were all over the place today. Nati kept running around and stripping. And everytime I tried to put clothes on her, she just ripped them back off. Alex on the other hand, found a box of markers somewhere and took to writing on the walls of his bedroom. I tried for two hours to get it off but just ended up stripping the paint and tomorrow I'm going to have to fix it.
( private )
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[Thursday
05/15/08 at 6:48pm] |
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God it's good to be back home.
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[Monday
04/14/08 at 6:48pm] |
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Open to Lita Only
I got Lita the puppy in hopes she wouldn't notice me packing. I think it's a failed attempted ot be sneaky. I'm not leaving her. But I am leaving. For three weeks. I'm going to Darfur. A guy I dormed with in college called me a few weeks ago about it. I've known about what's going on in Darfur and yeah, they need people for Doctors Without Borders. And I told them I'd go. For three weeks.
I just don't know how to tell her I'm leaving.
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[Thursday
04/10/08 at 10:46pm] |
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I don't know what posessed me to take the twins out and buy ( this. )
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[Sunday
03/09/08 at 4:19pm] |
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exhausted |
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I came to LA for the weekend. Signed the papers on the new house and spent time with Lita. Interesting time but time none the less. I have to go back to NY to finish packing and get shit ready to come to LA. The twins are going to stay with Lita.
I won't lie. It makes me nervous to be leaving them for so long, even if it is with Lita. We got into an arguement because I told her I don't want the twins around Nina. She spouted off something in Italian. Sexy but frustrating. If I take the twins with me back to New York this week, it's going to take twice as long to get move to LA.
So it looks like Lita's going to win this arguement.
Damnit.
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| Christ |
[Wednesday
03/05/08 at 11:13pm] |
It was just supposed to be a god damn joke. I didn't honestly think she'd think I was moving to Flordia. You know, cause there's so much going on for me in Flordia. Fuck. And then her sister. Shit.
The realtor called though. Two of the three houses I chose are mine if I want them. I picked one that's a little more, I don't know, simple. I'm sick of the big flashy shit. It's got five bedroom so when the twins get old enough, they can each have their own room and there's room ofr my bedroom, an office and then I don't know. I was thinking of turning the fifth room into a game room or something. Some place to relax and just have fun.
I gave the hospital my notice. They put in a good word for me at the hospital in LA. There's not a big calling for pediatric surgeons but, you do what you can. The chief of staff here in New York says I may just end up doing regular sugeries for a while. Whatever. As long as I can make the house payments and keep the twins in preschool.
Speaking of, they had a blast in LA. They really love Lita and God, she's good with them. We spent the weekend together. Me and her and the twins. I want someone in my life who's good for the twins. Lita's good for the twins. The women I've dated here in New York, they all told me to my face they liked the twins but none of them really seemed keen on "family time." Lita, she doesn't mind it.
I have to go pack.
It was just supposed to be a joke.
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[Wednesday
03/05/08 at 9:32pm] |
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Fuck. That.
private
This is not what I signed up for...
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[Saturday
01/26/08 at 3:54am] |
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My twin just died...
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[Thursday
12/06/07 at 8:46am] |
She called me three days ago. I haven't heard from her, aside from e-mails, for almost a year and she called. That alone told me something was wrong. Something had to be wrong. Ryder's a strong woman. She doesn't call when she breaks up with a boyfriend or has a bad day. She calls when she needs me. And...fuck.
Bone cancer. Probably the most painful kind of cancer there is. And my twin has it. She wouldn't tell me over the phone so I went and called her doctor in New York. Six months. She's had it for six months and hasn't said a word to me. Probably because she knows I'd be o nthe first plane to New York, leaving everything and everyone I love behind.
We don't have any parents. It's just me and Ryder. And it occured to me today, that if something happens to her, I'd be alone in the world. I mean yeah, I have the twins but shit, once they're grown it's just going to be me. No grandparents. Mom and dad have been dead for years now.
It doesn't scare me so much as gives me a wake up call. I need to get my shit in order. Have needed to for years now but settling down, it was never my thing. I tried with Tala and it failed. I tried with Leti. The only thing good that came out of that relationship was the twins.
And then there's Lita. I look at her sometimes and wonder why her? What is it about her that makes it so easy for me to just let my guard down and be myself with her. Maybe it's her spark. Leti had a spark too but Lita's is different. I've tried to be patient and not fuck it up with her but, knowing me, I probably have. They say you always want the one thing you can't have.
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[Monday
12/03/07 at 7:21pm] |
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I'm going to New York.
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| Thanksgiving |
[Tuesday
11/13/07 at 8:12pm] |
Ryder Only
Thanksgiving is approaching quickly. It's a week from Thursday. I'm going to nag Ryder until she comes. She needs to meet her niece and nephew after all.
And...that's it. I really don't have anything else to say right now. It's been a weird week.
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[Sunday
11/11/07 at 10:47pm] |
private to the fiesty sicilian woman who makes me smile
Wanna come over tonight?
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